i know i got to move and take steps forward.
i know i’d be happy.
for God would give what is best for me.
maybe for now, i needed to stand alone and face the consequences of my actions.
but i know one day. I will no longer have to be afraid. and that i’d be ready to love again..
i have never thought i would ever feel this way. I’ve never thought i’d feel this pain. maybe, there’s just things he don’t understand. it’s really hard to make people stay and stick to something only “you” just want. i know i have been unfair for deciding about things and making things work the way i wanted.
i never meant to hurt him. but there’s just things i cannot give.
i can’t be the gir you expect me to be.
i have always wanted to be the best for him. I’ve been trying to be somebody i could be just make him see my worth. it is so hard to believe in words told to you, so hard to confide with simple actions he gave you, and so hard to wait for something so UNSURE. even at a certain point in time you at very willing to love the person with your very best, it would sometimes be impossible if the only one loving is you. it would always be a decision to love. and would always be a decision. a decision i have made. and have realized that this time. IT WAS WRONG.
